Hate it....

I'm so upset this few days...
I was so jealous when i saw they both together
But I'm trying to tell myself that i hate her
Yea I do when I saw her....
But I'm jealous when I saw her together with my friend

And now... Slowly....
I getting feel like she snatching my friend
And feel that I'm the extra in the gang....

No matter where I am...
With my sisters gang or friends...
Keep on feel that I'm extra
Isn't I should stay at the corner...
Should not move and stay there
From the beginning to the end ?

How many years I need to cry for my " friends " ?
Form 1 , Form 2 , 3 , 4 , and even Form 5?... lols
I hate it , I tot that I will learn lesson once I get hurt
But I learn from there , and I get hurt here ...?
Since when I can really don't care about them ?